Life felt like it was going to be too long. I wanted out. 
HISTORY Sunday, November 13th, 2016 My 
While we can't always engineer our own happy endings, we can learn how to be more happy than not with the cards we've been dealt. 
I have to push ahead with the people who don't take the easy way out, who love me enough to stay alive even whe life sucks 
One night we argued for a solid hour over who would win in a duel between Lord Voldemort and Darth Vader. I'm surprised we're still friends. 
But I need him as badly as I should be pushing him away. It's too weird a mix of ugly and hopeful. 
The world should stop lying to kids because they've always been brutally honest with us. 
In that moment, I wish my existence were as simple as being set on fire and exploding in the sky. 
You don't get to keep ignoring the past because you don't like it. 
I would do my damn best to be more happy than not. 
We all make mistakes... but it's also a step in the right direction. If nothing else it's a step away from the wrong one. 
Imagine if we could glow to attract a mate instead of spraying on cologne that chokes everyone in a fifty-foot radius, 
The boy with no direction taught me something unforgettable: happiness comes again if you let it. 
I'd give in to the grief but make sure I wasn't loud enough to draw attention from those who think words will make me feel better. 
I'm sorry, but please don't be mad at me for reliving all of it. History is all you left me. 
Before. Before is all I will have left, and Before destroyed me before. 
Everything I did for him I did for me, too, because it made me happy to see him happy. That's not obsession, you dickhead, it's love." He's 
Happiness shouldn't be this hard. 
Love, the hugest liar in this universe. 