You can sit around for years wondering "What if I had gone the other way" and you will never have a true answer.
Esmeralda, don't blame your brother for his girlfriend's lack of wits, Sam admonished. 
I still care about you." "But you wish you didn't." "I really fucking wish I didn't, 
You're worse than a douche bag. You're a douche puddle, the excrement of a douching. 
Anyone who can rationalize love through intellect, has no idea what love is, for it is an emotion, and cannot be rationalized. For love is crazy. 
I don't know which one is the real you," I said. "Are you more like Kyle the dick or Kyle the good guy? 